Lyric

by admin

June 14, 2020

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Each time there is a rush of anger swamped by sorrow. Each time the fucking helplessness is enough to drown in. These are strangers after all. And these are certainly the strangest of times to live in. It should come as no surprise. A survivor is expected to display a certain insouciance, give a knowledgeable shrug and carry on, wise in the ways. But the music betrays the turmoil. I kid you not. Always on shuffle, the songs bring tears of rage to my eyes as I cook dinner, unaffected by one more suicide. My music system reads my mind better than most, it screws with my rationality and logic until the tears turn to laughter.

“I watch the world go round and round and see mine turning upside down. You’re throwing it all away.” Genesis

“All you think about is suicide. One of these days you’re gonna lose the fight. You better keep out of danger.” Queen

“‘Cause I got too much life running through my veins, going to waste. I don’t wanna die but I ain’t keen on living either.” Robbie Williams

“You say you don’t know, you tell me, “don’t lie”. You work at a smile, and you go for a ride. You had a bad day.” Daniel Powter

“Hold on, hold on tight, I’ll make everything all right. Wake up, don’t go asleep, I’ll pray the lord your soul to keep. Don’t close your eyes, don’t sing your last lullaby.” Kix.

I think of the book that kept me sane through the last three months. The book it took thirty years to come to terms with. To write with dry eyes and coherent mind. The bad day, the lost fight, the lullaby. And I would exchange all those well structured careful sentences for these pop lyrics. These short words that punch way above their weight. That tell a story of a life lived and lost. That keep it snappy, hummable, not weighed down by years or grief or sick rage.

“You’re leaving now, it’s in your eyes. There’s no disguising it, it really comes as no surprise, to find that you planned it all along… Only time will tell if you were wrong.” Asia